Dear Reader,
I hope this finds you well and in good health. (It has been a while since I've written something other than emails so I think this is a good start.)
We think a lot. So much is going on in our head. An average person has 35-48 thought in just 1 minute. Even writing this, I was wondering if I should write "1" alphabetically or numerically. Something that honestly is not worth thinking about.
Why? I think we think a lot of stupid things to cover up most things that we are trying to block away; which basically causes more stress, confusion, and most importantly an unsettled mind. What I'm trying to do nowadays is live now, and not worry about anything else, which is probably the most difficult thing that I ever had to do.
I am the kind of person who obsesses about the future (Trying to avoid all that once happened in the past) so basically; I am living in 3 worlds (again thought of writing it as three) "The Past", "The Present", & "The Future" oh... and everything in between - which is everything else that my mind makes up and most of the time even believes! So in my case, I am probably having 105 thoughts per minute since I am living all 3 worlds at the same time.
What is this doing to me? Killing me slowly basically. I always hear people telling me "don't worry about tomorrow, when tomorrow comes; worry then!" - I've always thought "Idiots.. I have to be ready if something does happen!".... Today, I think I was proven that I was the idiot
-Short boring story to prove the point coming up-
*Scenario in bullet points to make it more bearable:
- Had to pack everything to stay at my sister's house for a few days.
- Was worrying none stop about the commute and different streets I'm comfortable with in the morning/evening when I come and leave work. (To avoid traffic)
- Was worrying about my plans for this weekend.
- Was worrying about my yoga sessions and how to reschedule them.
- Was too lazy to pack my stuff.
- Slept unsettled thinking of everything that to me at that point was so unpleasant.
- Woke up to a text that plans are canceled, and I am staying home instead.
- Felt stupid for losing sleep worrying about something that did not happen.
- Lost few good hours of what is now the past.
- Losing few good minutes of my present writing this, so my future self could learn from.
Basically, what I'm trying to say is that when people tell you not to worry; just don't... cause no one genuinely knows what will happen next, or if even there will be something worth worrying about in the next second.
A tip that you probably know but I still feel the urge to share: Write things down, stop burdening your mind with to-do-lists! This helps me a lot at work/life/appointments and thoughts that I schedule to think of later.
Writing this, hopefully that this is a lesson for me and to those of you who do think of a 100 things in a minute...
- Breathe
- Relax
- Take one step at a time (I actually wrote that alphabetically without giving it a second-thought!) Progress? I think so.
Here you go: